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So this week… I lost four pounds… Please don’t congratulate me, becuase it was really just my hormones. I ate like a pig this week. I ate everything in sight….then more and then an hour later.. ate again…. nothing was healthy! I hate crazy cravings (not pregnant) and indulged them ALL!!! With PCOS, I don’t have periods often so when I do (once every five years) my body goes through crazy hormones. Now that things have levled back out a bit, I imagine it is time to get serious.

It is cold here in Tennessee. I am sure not as cold as other places, but cold to me. I just cancelled my gym membership b/c we needed to cut back. I need some suggestions of things that I can do to work out. Feel free to tell me to stop being a wimp and go outside and walk, but anything else is great too:)  I have a crazy job that I work some days from 8 am to 4:30 but it is so unpredictable, I could work until 8 am the next day if things are crazy. So with such a varying work schedule, I think that my body is out of whack and I try and sleep when I can.. which is too much these days!

I really need some motivation. I am excited about the possiblities!

So I always feel dumb making the same New Years resolution. I am going to lose weight. Maybe my New Years resolutions should be that I am going to gain weight, because I know that I am great at that.

So this year I really am going to lose the weight, for several different reasons. Reason #1 : A few years ago, I used to love to go out with my friends. Now, it just seems like I make excuses and I think that it is because I am not happy with me. I have friends that I have not seen in 4-5 years because I dont want them to see me so overweight. #2  I hate that when I go to try on clothes, I automatically have to look in the back of the rack, where the XL are and these days the XXL. I hate that it is so hard to buy jeans. #3 Another reason is my health. I am 25 years old, and just last year was in the hospital twice. My doctor says that my body cannot handle me being heavy because it is not what it is used to. Although, I was never super skinny, I have let myself get away. I remember thinking, when I hit 150 I will be depressed, then 150 came and I thought, 175 will be killer, then once I got to 175 I thought, if I hit 200 its OVER… now I am praying to stay under 250 and longing for those 175 days. #4: I want to want to be in pictures!! #5 My last and most important reason is that I want to start a family more than anything. But the greatest thing that I can do for my unborn future children is be healthy so that they have an active mother, and I really want to give them that!!!

The last five weeks I have been doing weight watchers.  Well kind of, I have more done weight watchers without any activity and with several days “off” I have lost a few pounds, but more importantly I have learned that having the support of the other people is REALLY helpful. So I hope that this is the same type of experience.

I live in Murfreesboro Tn. I would love to have “buddies” from everywhere, but people in my area to work out with is great too!!!

Thanks for reading my ramblings!